|Written by Jodi Ruckley|
|Thursday, 03 March 2011 00:00|
It feels like a really special time with Wayne (almost 16 year old dog) at the moment, so I wanted to say a few words about him. A couple of weeks ago he surprised me, he relayed “My time is coming to an end, it is time you dealt with that”. He asked me to buy some herbs.
I asked, “What do you need?”
I chose chamomile. I have watched him get slower and slower, still demanding to come everywhere with me, to go for morning and afternoon walks, just at a much slower pace. His sight and hearing are getting worse and worse, however has not hindered his ability to get around or his love for life. I find people are doting on him wherever we go, telling him how adorable he is, patting him and connecting with him on a deep level.
Over the last few weeks he has managed to lose a new collar, a tag with his name and my contact details; and two leads. He is insistent, I want to be free, and I do not need these. The woman constantly having to keep an eye on him doesn’t always agree, but I am doing my best to create the space for Wayne to be as free as he wishes. He also constantly reminds me “death is a celebration, be happy”.
The last couple of weeks have been tough for me, I have cried a lot; I have shared my feelings with Wayne about it. I will miss him terribly, and sometimes I wonder if I will be able to function without my best friend around. Finally yesterday I felt some sort of peace. I can truly say I am sharing a deep connection with Wayne and feel prepared for the changes to come. I wrote this poem about 18 months ago, I have said it out loud a few times which has helped me a great deal.
May Wayne sleep soundly tonight, surrounded by love and light