It feels like a really special time with Wayne (almost 16 year old dog) at the moment, so I wanted to say a few words about him. A couple of weeks ago he surprised me, he relayed “My time is coming to an end, it is time you dealt with that”. He asked me to buy some herbs.

I asked, “What do you need?”
He replied, “No, buy some for you, to relax and calm you”. ☺

I chose chamomile. I have watched him get slower and slower, still demanding to come everywhere with me, to go for morning and afternoon walks, just at a much slower pace. His sight and hearing are getting worse and worse, however has not hindered his ability to get around or his love for life. I find people are doting on him wherever we go, telling him how adorable he is, patting him and connecting with him on a deep level.

Over the last few weeks he has managed to lose a new collar, a tag with his name and my contact details; and two leads. He is insistent, I want to be free, and I do not need these. The woman constantly having to keep an eye on him doesn’t always agree, but I am doing my best to create the space for Wayne to be as free as he wishes. He also constantly reminds me “death is a celebration, be happy”.

The last couple of weeks have been tough for me, I have cried a lot; I have shared my feelings with Wayne about it. I will miss him terribly, and sometimes I wonder if I will be able to function without my best friend around. Finally yesterday I felt some sort of peace. I can truly say I am sharing a deep connection with Wayne and feel prepared for the changes to come. I wrote this poem about 18 months ago, I have said it out loud a few times which has helped me a great deal.

May Wayne sleep soundly tonight, surrounded by love and light
May he feel the surrounding white light, and be guided to the light when the time is right
May his last days be filled with joy, close friends and his hearts desires met with ease.
I prepare to say goodbye my friend and farewell you to a place of joy and peace.